Part I and II, further flat cat adventures

Monday July 11, Part I

Carolina Wrens have been attempting to nest in a bucket in the garage. I appreciate the effort. We’ve seen them fly in and then quickly out and yesterday morning as I was leaving to spend the day with my cousin in Missouri (cousins on the town, thrift store crawl edition) one of those diminutive bodies flew in touched down on the bucket and then left. When I took the bucket down there were pieces of leaf and dried grass in it, silly birds. The bucket has now been emptied and turned over on the shelf, I know they can find a better place, but I think that of all the birds the thought of the wren nesting that close makes me unguardedly happy.

This morning a Northern Mockingbird was at the top of the lonely pine again with at least four songs in its repertoire. It has been there the past two days as the weather cooled a bit, the rain came. All the birds have been singing. It is also cicada time. So, a lot of music happening around the yard. But no groundhog capture yet. This is a tough one, it goes into the trap, but only so far eating the peanuts as it goes. So, I’ve put out extra peanuts into the trap and when I check it just shells. But it doesn’t flip the door. (The moral of the story is, don’t get cocky) I put my yard-cam out the Saturday night to see what was going on and brought in yesterday afternoon. I have pictures of a blue jay, a sparrow, a rabbit, a squirrel, a couple of raccoons came by in the night and then around 11AM the groundhog can be seen coming out from under the deck and then getting awfully close to the camera and sort of flipping me the bird. A cheeky character.

Tuesday July 12, Part II

Between 1124AM and 1139AM today I caught a groundhog. I had added an extra trap, many more peanuts and more camouflage. Right before lunch I took this little flat cat to a wilder area, I sang Born Free, I told it to have a good life and quit chittering at me. And then I came home. Will this be the last groundhog? Probably not, but will I be able to keep them from living under my deck? Yes. Maybe. I hope so. Will they stay out of my neighbor’s garage? That’s for my neighbor to worry about. I really have done all I need to do, all I can. He knows that peanuts work best. He has traps. Good luck to you.

Tomorrow morning we’re breaking the heat wave (again) for a day or two. Tonight, I’ll refill the last little hole that was dug out and I have some concentrated pepper spray that I will use before I head in for the night. I haven’t been putting bird feeders out for a few weeks as too many cowbirds were in the area. Once the feeders were gone, they even left the lawn – back to the prairie with you, you colonizers!

So, it is Tuesday. In the raised bed in the backyard, I have cosmos blooming, corn has come up and I just discovered while weeding that there are tomatoes blooming. A pleasant surprise as I had seen flat cats grazing there quite often.

Can't stop now, I've traveled so far*

I love those days when you fall in love again with something about the world that you’ve just missed or didn’t take time to pay attention to or just forgot about. This morning I woke to hear a bird I still don’t know, its morning song was high and low notes, chirps and a shrill whistle. It may have been more than one bird, I was quiet listening for quite a while and then slowly opened the curtain, but the rain and humidity had fogged the window and as the curtain closed the song closed as well. Around the rest of the house, I could hear cardinals and blue jays and even a mourning dove was undercutting the dawn with its low song.

This past week we’ve had another heat wave, it’s been extremely hot and extra humid, so much so that I couldn’t repair the deck where the groundhogs had been coming and going, I’d seen another adult on the lawn and saw that some of the first repairs had been dug out. I had the trap out for a bit yesterday morning but once it got warmer, I closed it, a poor little furry body didn’t need to be in there. My morning weatherman, Anthony, promises cooler temperatures and low humidity for the weekend; I’ve restocked the peanuts, look out flat cat, here I come. Then there will be a completion to the barricade which includes chicken wire and gravel and extra bricks. It won’t be very beautiful but, hopefully, effective.

This morning I had a few errands to run, it had rained overnight but no relief was really offered, so I tried to get in and out of each place quickly. While I was driving back home, I was listening to classic rock, which is a mindless, sing-along alternative to my public radio station. I can go to it when a break is needed from the endless cycle of, what? Doom. Idiocy. Dread. Death. Destruction. Well. I have the option to tune it out for a while. The song I Want to Know What Love Is by Foreigner was playing as I neared home, and suddenly I was lost in time, a nostalgically sweet time. This song was all over as Jerry, and I started dating. I’m sure we probably danced to it. Maybe during his command’s Navy Day Ball, where even when the music stopped, we continued dancing. I wouldn’t be surprised if a carload of us sang it as we drove around Naples one evening, played loud on the tape deck, windows down, earnestness in overdrive.

I gotta take a little time
A little time to think things over
I better read between the lines
In case I need it when I'm older
Aaaah woah-ah-aah

(Now I would joke about the “Aaaah woah-ah-aah” and say I wrote that!)

Now this mountain I must climb
Feels like a world upon my shoulders
And through the clouds I see love shine
It keeps me warm as life grows colder

In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
Can't stop now, I've traveled so far*
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me
Aaaah woah-oh-ooh

How important it felt then, how it said everything, as music so often feels as though someone knew, knew your heart. I wouldn’t be able to name another song by Foreigner or any member of the band. Today though it made me stop and listen again. I pulled over, under a tree, watched some birds, sang the song loud and then headed home wanting to dance with Jerry even as the song stopped playing.

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me
I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
And I wanna feel, I want to feel what love is
And I know, I know you can show me

Seasonal and temporary

At the door the firefly hovered and lit, lit and hovered, moved from one door to the next looking in the window ascending toward the roof and then low toward the front walk. Was this the same insect I’d watched float around the geranium while I was out? This lone beacon crossing the shrubbery, dipping past a begonia, disappearing into that low branch of the ornamental pear. Why wasn’t it with the rest of the flares in the backyard beneath the maple? Was it just waiting to move on, to get around the cul-de-sac and find that giant light that has come early, that barrage of fireworks over by the junior high? Does the light that is seeking light care at this point that those sparks are not its society but another seasonal and temporary flash? I watch until the blaze is gone, one last signal and then it is away into the darkening night.

(photo from pexels.com)

June ends with this

We’re getting ready to enter the month of July and I have deemed myself the Groundhog Whisperer. In the past two weeks I have caught eight groundhogs and taken them to other areas. Wild areas. Areas I worry are being inundated with groundhogs. Tomorrow, I work on sealing the areas of the deck they use to access their tunnels feeling confident that I have moved or scared any others off. The last groundhog was the only one that seemed peeved, I received a number of clicking warnings. But nothing frantic. (This one was caught after ten minutes of having put the trap out, they love peanuts too much!)

During the groundhog roundup my neighbor also had a trap out, but he forgot to close it overnight and the next morning when I looked out, I could see two young raccoons looking very Chaplinesque. It was early (and I couldn’t wait for my neighbor to get up) and a day that would be hot, so I had Jerry help and we took the trap with the two convicts, spitting and growling, to the side of the house toward the ravine. I think the two raccoons had made a pack to attack me when I opened the cage but only one jumped toward me and when he saw his buddy running, he took out after him growling and biting – of course I was already headed the other way!

Mary 8 Groundhogs 0, sorry flat cats. Raccoons a draw.

Here’s a weak hand poem from the other morning.

Whatever alchemy life throws into us
like late day sun, a gold that welds memory
to the world: The sunflower near blush
as it opens its face to the light for the first
time or that moment we woke to your silence
and found you, head up in your crib, a bubble
on your tongue and a smile better than any bright
star welcoming us.

Clandestine groundhog transport

The past few days my Facebook “memories” have been full of Ursula and Zora. It was just two years ago that they came into our home. (And now almost a year since they both left. Sickness is a cruel string for cats, you can only do what you guess is right and second guess yourself, even now.) As the memories of U & Z went dim (They. Never. Go. Dim.) I began following the coming and goings of the groundhogs. Or the flat cats as I called them. Otto and Olive last year and then Olive had four kits this spring; and I have been watching them grow and explore -- until they started going into our neighbor’s garage and chewing on his car (wires) and climbing shelves – so we (neighbors, Jerry, and me) hatched a plan to 1) run them off or 2) move them.

We have found that the Internet is full of ideas about how to make a groundhog leave. After trying three of these ideas, I really think that the groundhogs have hacked the Internet and are posting these ideas as another “gotcha, you silly human”. So, we moved on to humane traps; placed in a great location and loaded with peanuts (groundhog Kryptonite) the whole family was caught and relocated within 48 hours.

The weather was quite warm, so I was very careful to check the traps often and then quickly load and transport to an out of the town wooded area. Three of the kits were trapped within six hours, which meant every time the trap closed, I had to get them quickly to their new location. I was surprised at how calm they seemed, though I’m sure their poor little hearts were beating like mad, all the more reason to get them quickly to a wild area.

The only glitch was after catching the fourth kit after I reloaded the traps with peanuts I caught a Blue Jay (as they also love peanuts). I knew something was up when I heard the racket from out back; luckily the Blue Jay didn’t panic (too) much and quickly left when I opened the door. (I will be offering a peanut tribute to these birds soon).


(Today's weak hand poem)
The small brown body
pushes against the cage.
Looks at me, not in fear
but understanding:” Who
will release you, human?”

Looking after the world

 

I love looking out on the second hottest day of the year to see a goldfinch, its back to the afternoon sun the shawl of its feather’s double gold, a gold that makes you swoon or cry or just exclaim, “Yes, that’s it! That is, it!” And one post over is the perfect lady goldfinch, subtle and more beautiful than should be possible. And the sun sort of sulks seeing them there.

The four kits are venturing further and further into the yards, even in the heat they are out after the clover. Then there is that moment they see something, and they all shuffle run back to the deck. Though I have noticed they like to chase birds, I guess because they want whatever falls from the feeders too.

This morning before it got extra, extra hot I had some yardwork to do and as I was finishing, I noticed a cowbird panting under the forsythia. It was quite warm, so I found the old pie pans I used last year, filled half it with rocks and the rest with water setting them around the yard in the shade for insects, birds or any being needing relief. I was just out a few minutes ago to refill them and chat with a dog walker, place my trashcan out. It is 88 now but feels like 96, so a relief.

I have been trying to write a poem about how an eleven-year-old knows how to cover herself in her friend’s blood to survive a massacre. It may be one of those things a poem cannot hold, my heart can’t hold it, it makes my headache. How does she go on? How do those parents. The nation moves on, leaving those burying children and grief on their own. I started reading David Sedaris’s latest book, Happy-Go-Lucky, and the first essay is called Active Shooter and I had to put it down and walk around the house, go out and touch the maple tree, stand in the extraordinary heat. The tree does not need us, the sun doesn’t care if it cooks us into oblivion, these things are just doing their job something we are failing at, looking after each other, looking after the world.

If a goldfinch could bring peace, feed the world, heal everyone, would we notice?

Weak hand writing and prompts randomly applied

Daybreak, birdsong, leaf chatter: the things that do not care about the things that matter to you. That sliver of moon last night, the handful of fireflies under the maple. The rain that falls right now, telling stories – what it has always said before, but more urgent.

In the foggy dawn
we walk, chatting
about what we always
chat about: world problems
oddities of the town,
our own somewhat broken
but grateful hearts.

We carry these things
like a lit candle
careful to use the heat,
the light and the hesitant
life the flame holds.

~~~

The hummingbird comes to the window, looks at its own perfection, turns left and right admires that fiery red throat, the iridescent green and for one moment the swoon nearly knocks him out.

~~~

A prayer of protection against the night

I have changed and now
know a kinder language
then some I have uttered.

Once those syllables let go,
moths into a candle-fed
room, where each word flared.

~~

"I'll go through the closets and cupboards to find things for auction..."

        ~~Jane Kenyon, Church Fair

Two soup spoons, mismatched

an old silk tie

my tithe has grown small.